Robert

hah...

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 23:52:59 GMT

I just realised I started this partially for someone I don't even talk to anymore. Queer, eh? Oh. Speaking of, it's nice having someone's sister tell you that their sister has a crush on you. When their sister is in front of you. Good game.

yay Kaila

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 22:07:54 GMT

milkshakes <33

Instant gratification...

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 19:10:49 GMT

I think we all need a little more of it.

Awkward situations...

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 18:39:51 GMT

Are not good to put people in. This morning sucked, the afternoon was great even though Laura was a lil funky. She's bummed about having to spend all night at the Bayside game cheering for our loser football team. I wouldn't want to be a cheerleader. Britt's cool. And maybe Kaila tonight, that would be neat. If not, then Britt.

People

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 01:19:50 GMT

People are good. Especially new and interesting ones. On another note, you're welcome for the gift Laura, I knew it would be appreciated ;D

NEDM any day but today, and maybe tomorrow.

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 18:30:17 GMT

Zomgg Laura's great aha. Carpooling is pretty fun. Too bad about her work situation.. I hope that goes well today for her. At least I was able to help her a bit. Her car tomorrow, and programming with her too. Tomorrow is going to be splentacular. le score.

The slower you go, the more music you hear.

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 00:27:28 GMT

werd.

Keh heh.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 18:26:28 GMT

Wow today went really well. I'm partners with Laura. And she wants me to drive her to atc sometimes. And we swapped numbers. It's all happening so fast and it's like wow she's really cool and stuff. Pongase romantica please, dame un kiss. Ella combina la calle con la moda de Paris. Aha found her song. So anywhoz, today went really well, and I don't feel as customarily brutalised as I usually do. Talking with Cici yesterday really got my self esteem to where this was possible though. Thank you again.. Chao.

Here's an idea...

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 00:24:19 GMT

WAKE THE HECK UP.

How about if you're so depressed and things are so bad, you take someone up on their offer if they want to make you feel better? Or if you really want to feel sorry for yourself, you don't complain so much. This "Oh, I'm so depressed, but I refuse to let you help me emo emo cut cut I hate life waaa no don't make me feel better, then I'd have no reason to wear trendy dyes in my hair and have all those nifty chains and stuff on my clothes even though mine are invisible but I'm still so whiny and I like it that way" crap is getting old. Wanna feel better? Call me. Don't want to feel better? Don't call me. If I care about you, I'll help. Blow me off too much and I'll quit offering. Other people have bad lives too, quit taking me for granted. Attention is a gift, not a right to be exercised and shut off whenever you want. I'm a friend, not a light switch. My life sucks too, so I go for a drive, and go get some ice cream, maybe hang out with a friend, maybe find a lady friend to take my mind off things, maybe I'll call an old friend I haven't spoken to in a while. Listening to music makes things better too. If you don't want others helping you, help yourself. If you can't help yourself, let others help you. The end.

If you read this, you're not who I'm talking about.
Though I'm sure you know someone like them.

We are who we were with no more.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 22:31:49 GMT

I love you for caring, as you always have. Thank you.

Brave Sir Robin

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 23:42:46 GMT

He bravely ran away, away.

I think that means no.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 19:24:17 GMT

Yep. Probably no.

Saportaaaah.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 03:04:11 GMT

Wow those demos are really great. Thanks Melie.

Eh.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 00:14:50 GMT

I got that weird feeling again tonight at 7. I hope things are ok. Anyway, today was pretty nice. Mom seems to be quieting down, still hasnt gone bck to work.. nor does she seem to have any intention to. Meredith caught dad doing that thing again. Way to lie, dad. I get to see K on monday. That sounds like it'll be fun. Sara this weekend maybe. That'd be nice. Other people this weekend too maybe, though they (unfortunately) seem less likely. That being completely different from less wanted. Oh well. Alice is really cool. And I was glad I was able to help Laura out again. She's really neat too. Good night.

How'd I end up here to begin with?

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 20:55:06 GMT

I don't know.

Anyway, today was.. interesting. Talked to someone I haven't heard from in a while. Talked to someone else I tried to ignore for a while. I felt kinda trampled for a good part of the day. People are assholes, it really shouldn't be so hard to find compassion. I like ATC because I can help people and (usually) get help. But ATC makes PA suck in comparison. I can't wait for college. K for homecoming? A pretty good chance, though there are more.

Oh yeah

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 18:37:35 GMT

We also used Alice today in programming. It was cool. I made singing penguins. That's going to be a good class.

Yucky,

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 18:32:25 GMT

Mom's still got the whole depression thing going on, I need to find someone for homecoming, but that's not so much of a problem as the former. Dad has this thing where if stuff doesn't go the way he thinks it should, he's completely intolerant of it and yells about it. Like my pants. He yelled at me to take them out of the dryer when the thing buzzed. You're supposed to leave them in, you dope, otherwise they don't dry and they get all wrinkley. Like they were today. It wouldn't be so bad if they were cargos or jeans and they were allowed to be wrinkley, but they're khakis. Blah. It's weird, but when I was learning to drive with him I felt like I would never get it. Then when I got my license I felt like I had been driving forever, and everything was perfect. Last night driving with him I felt stupid again. And today alone I felt great. I think he has a negative impact on my mental health. Further testing necessary. Nobody reads this anyway. Ah well. Good bye for now.

A good day..

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 01:02:18 GMT

Well, today went rather spiffingly. Helped Meredith get a ride to school. Taking Casey tomorrow. Yeyeah. Homework time.

Si tu no estas junto a mi...

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 23:55:12 GMT

Bleh homework. I'm kinda........sad I guess. Oh well. This week should be good. Bye for now.

Bumper Confessional

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 20:42:06 GMT

I guess today has been kinda bad. Dad's been acting strange. Trying to run me over and yelling at me any chance he gets. I think he's trying to keep me here after this year. Ergo I must get a job to spite him, and endeavor to be away from home as much as possible to spare myself his increasing wroth. I might post more later. I have homework. And passtime ADHD.

Grok to me.

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 19:28:52 GMT

Woohoo, today was pretty good. Rachel reminds me of an old old old ex. The way she smells. Not sure if that's good, but it's a comforting smell, and she's nice. Anyway, car insurance sucks, $25 parking decals suck, $5 parking decals suck after paying $25 for one for my regular school... Happy birthday Ryan.. 17 at last. "This is your birthday song, it's not too long, the end!" I like my english class. Kayla is kinda.. mean.. though. But it reminds me so much of Honors 10! Could just be because half of my honors 10 class is in there. Including Jesus. Although the choral "amen" after anything he reads seems to be getting old with Mrs. B. More later. SK this weekend ye-yeah.

Wow...

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 20:27:21 GMT

Ok. So I'm studying and doing this stupid physical map of europe, and this middle school (?) kid runs down the street screaming "I am matrix! I am from the matrix! Frickin' matrix!" I felt it was noteworthy.

Ah, A new dumping ground.

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 19:36:04 GMT

Well, myspace sure lost its flavor. I remember back when it first came out... There wasn't so much of that comment whoring idiocy, and juvenile addiction. Just plain internet harlotry in general. Oh well. I have some homework to do for now, but I'll probably post something later. Although, quickly, I was rather refreshed in finding out today that Laura was a lot nicer than I have been giving her credit for for the last couple years. I wish I told her about that ink stain though. Didn't have the heart to, though. Especially after she shattered my previous perceptions of her. Her friend's kinda bitchy though. And it does suck about that deal with that other person she's fighting with. Wish I could help with that.